I feel as though that is my word to describe every experience here in South Africa.  But it's not necessarily a bad thing, actually, not by any means.  I absolutely love the intensity that is here.  I feel like I am being renewed so much, in so many different ways.  As I was writing in my journal, I began to write an analogy to laying my burdens at the feet of Christ. 

As you go through airport security and you step through the gates, the alarm goes off.  So you step back and remove what you thought caused it (say it was your watch).  You try again and the same happens, so you remove coin from your pockets.  Imagine if this happened again and again.  The alarm would continue to go off until you had removed the last piece of metal that was hindering you from walking through those gates into the freedom on the other side.  This is how it is with our burdens with Christ.  We are able to lay something down at His feet, and begin to walk in that step of freedom, but once we begin, we realize that we are holding onto something else, so we also need to let that go.  This continues on until we have allowed God to take every one of our burdens, everything we cling to, and truly surrender all.  It is at that time that we are able to realize the true freedom found in Jesus Christ.

    God is doing such a work in me right now.  Some days I am able to see it, others I'm not.  But I still know that He is.  I have no doubt that God has called me here for a purpose.  I wasn't coming here to be changed, but, in coming, God is changing me.  This is one of the most frightening, freeing places I have ever been in.  But I'm loving it.  I wish I could even begin to explain it, but I don't have the time or space to and I could never put into words how amazing God is, really.  A simple explanation:  I am being challenged daily to live a set-apart life.  One in which I am in relation with the God of the universe, and I am complete and content in being who I am in Him.  In realizing that I am nothing more than an instrument in His hand and nothing less than a beloved daughter of the Most High, I am beginning to realize that I am able to do more for His name than I ever believe to be possible. 

    God is good.